Yesterday I visited my family doctor and got the results of my chest xray and blood work. Was I tense… yes. Scared? More than I could tell you.

The good news is that the chest xray showed nothing abnormal. The blood work also showed nothing abnormal. Maybe I’ve been spared the cancer spreading. I’m not so sure. With my first operation to place the markers around the tumor in my eye only days away I dread the possibility that I may still have to also undergo a biopsy of my liver to see what that spot is they saw back in July.

I get to have my eye turned almost inside out… maybe several needles punched through my abdominal wall…

Scared? Maybe a little. Tense? Yes, a lot. Hope? Slipping away every second. But hope being lost I know is only because of the waiting. Months become weeks. Weeks become days. Days will become hours.

And I am wound as tight as any Swiss clock. Thank God for Sheila being able to hold me together.

Here it is, late night October 2.

I have 9 more days until we (Sheila and I) begin our trip and arrive in Vancouver and on the 12th my eye operation is scheduled where I will have the markers/plaques placed around the tumor behind my eye.

I still can’t believe all this is happening. It all seems so unreal.

And the waiting… waiting… waiting…

Sleep is always a great idea, right? Well for me I buy new domain names and plan out more ways to create content for the web. 2 new domains today. I will save the work for all the waiting time in Vancouver. 14 days, 5 operations and treatments. Plenty of healing days. At least the hotel has high-speed internet access. I can work or at least try to.

Now, sleep. I’m tired. Stressed. And tired.

I have added the handout about the TRIUMF treatment center. The document discusses the basics of proton radiation treatment. It’s in PDF format so you should be able to easily view it by clicking on the link below:

TRIUMF document for eye treatment using proton radiation