Well, I’ve done it.

I’ve discussed my diagnosis to all of my family and some of my friends. My wife continues to do more research online about ocular melanoma than I could possibly consider doing, looking for some hope in advance of the series of tests that are coming in Vancouver on September 19.

Hope. I have plenty.

I have no fear of the possibility that the cancer has spread. I have read some stories of people living a long time after their initial diagnosis. Of course there are also a lot of voices that have been silenced, but we won’t consider those.

I’ve found myself without an appetite for about 2 weeks now, maybe longer. Although I do feel hungry at times, when I eat I start to feel nauseated. I don’t think I’m losing weight at all, which is good.

I’ve also not been sleeping at night and I have started taking a few naps throughout the day. I just feel so tired all the time. Today no nap. Stay up as long as I can and take my medicine. Today is the second day of my family doctor prescribing me ‘Apo-Amitriptyline’. It’s a drug that is used for a variety of purposes one of which is to help you relax and get a restful sleep. It didn’t do anything on the first night, hopefully tonight will be better.