Monthly Archives: June 2007

June Changes – For Good and Bad

The good, of course, is the move we are about to make is a big one. Kamloops to Logan Lake. 80,000+ population center to 3,000 unique individuals sharing a crossroads off the highway, in between other small communities. The packing up is all on schedule. We are ready and excited! 

I, on the other had are continuing to be struck by confounding maladies. I am off the Tramacet, temporarily, taking only Lyrica for my feet pain (which is now affecting my hands)and Zopiclone, to get some sleep. My short-term memory is slipping. I can feel myself lost at times, thoughts arriving in my head that have nothing to do with the previous thought or the task at hand. Once a creative boon, now a major annoyance of distortion. 

Although I did come up with a thoughtful line today: “You only have now to make friends, later doesn’t come.” 

It was quite hard to hold onto that thought. And, even as I write it, I’m not sure it was the original or not. Maybe the third or fifth mix of the words. Just don’t know. My typing capabilities and speed has been halved recently because of the increased pain in my hands. The hands are now working slower than the eyes that direct them to the keys. TYPO-city is where I live now. Note to Bill Gates: spekll check needs to be improved, a lot. 

On Thursday I have an appointment for a mini-neurological exam. I’ve never been good at health tests, recently. (Small joke.)  Wish me well. 

June ’07 Update

June has brought a sense of uniformity to my being. Although I am taking a handful of “Tramacet” a day and 2 “Lyrica” a day to maintain my pain-free existence (improved quality of life through pharmaceuticals, says my doctor) I manage to plug along.

I still have the ever-present threat of my head splitting open when I forget to take my Tramacet. The pain in my feet comes at me at all hours, often waking me from my sleep at night.

At the onset of the head pain (on top of the skull, behind the left eye, pain like an axe splitting my head to my jaw) I was scheduled for a CT scan. The results showed nothing other than the tumor and the 4 plaques that are still mounted on the back of my left eye, surrounding the tumor (left over from the proton radiation treatment).

The good news is that still the tumor has shown signs of shrinking. The eye may yet regain some blood vessels and live. I can persevere through this with the continued support of my wife, kids and family.

I am a cancer survivor, God willing.