Monthly Archives: July 2007

After 9 Months

I’d like to say that the last 9 months (after proton radiation treatment) have been easy. But it hasn’t even been an uphill battle.

My body is stressed enough that I can’t sleep, have constant headaches… and still can barely see out of my left eye. MY feet hurt all the time, and my hands sometimes feel like raw flesh.

The good news, of course, is that the cancer hasn’t gotten any worse, not that anyone is aware of anyways.

July 23 was my 9 month follow-up. I am doing well according to Dr. Paton. Not much has changed in the size, shape or placement of the tumor since my stellar 6 month checkup when a smidge of shrinkage was observed.


At least nothing is getting worse with my eye. I’m almost past the point of when they would recommend removing it. I think that’s at the 2 year mark depending on a host of symptoms that I will not bore you with… yet.

I think the biggest battle I have will be with myself, maintaining my sanity.

But life does continue, no matter how much you’d like it to slow down and stay at a different time.


July is the Month of Excitement!

I can’t believe that I am now a 1 year survivor of cancer.
It was July 4 2006 that I was finally diagnosed with ocular melanoma. After 3 years and a few months of “we don’t know”.

We are off to Vancouver on Sunday for my next 3 month checkup.
Not looking forward to the ultrasound.
Not looking forward to the results either.
Although Dr. Paton tells me that the tumor is shrinking, really, that’s the least of my worries.
I’m worried about the tumor spreading the cancer cells throughout my body.
Liver, lungs, etc.
In October, the next 3 month checkup, I think I’m due for a CAT scan or at least an ultrasound of my insides.

Call me “continually scared”.

But life goes on and I’m living it.
We’ve moved to a quiet community where we can feel safe with the kids, like the neighborhood and get back to less worries of life’s commitments.
And there is a pub a block away.
Just have to check if it’s close enough for me to connect wirelessly to my computer system.
“Hey, mind he noise I’m working here!” as I sit in the pub writing my articles.
Life can be great.

That’s all for now. See you after my July 23 checkup.